Saturday, September 6, 2008

Would

Would you be able to live in torment and pain.

Would you be able to live without love.

Would you be able to live without loving.

Would you be able to accept a hug.

Would you be able to cry for a lost soul.

Would you be able to know where to turn.

Would you be missed if you disappeared.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

So many things I don't want to face.
So much I block out, don't want to see.
I have so little left to give; won't open up.
I have systematically alienated everyone from my life.
One by one until I am alone and
No one knows or cares about me anymore.
No one to call, no one to touch,
No one even knows I exist.
And when I'm gone I won't be missed.
kmf

Anonymous said...

Profound thoughts, Mark.

Mark said...

Jimtown, I hear you. Although for me my thoughts here come from being an introvert and suffering from depression or being shy. Nothing ever diagnosed but I know. For me more from depression than anything else. It is tough, I think I should go to a shrink and work on it. It will not get better by doing nothing.

For me the worst thing is "social anxiety disorder". I am not good just starting conversations with people and that just feeds upon itself. I also do not like being the center of attention. Better fix that soon. If I am to start getting shows with my pictures I will need to make that problem go away.

Thanks Ken. It comes from be alone so much of the time. Too much time to think.

Anonymous said...

Mark, Maybe the writing will help. It's a good start. I always feel like anything I can comment is so insignificant and yet, I'm finding out that people like to have us comment on their photos or thoughts, so I just try to go with whatever I'm thinking and not over think it.

I'm sure you know what I mean. I avoid people as often as possible too in real life but the writing has helped some.

One of my other flick friends wrote a book about his childhood, I really liked the line in it where he said about therapy, "I thought self-help would be cheaper and less humiliating." I had to laugh at that because I think that way too but some days I don't do a very good job of helping myself.

Anyway, I wish you luck and the only advice I can give, I've given to myself at times is to put the focus on the other person. Try to make them feel comfortable. We're all really a lot alike, we all want the same thing.